ARTSY FARTSY AVA: sad

Truth be told, there are days when I just feel really down. I would normally start the day feeling alright and good, then all of a sudden something I see or encounter would trigger the unhappy sense in me. Believe me, I try to be joyous again. When I get that heavy feeling inside of me, I immediately take action-- either I play with the kids, talk to the husband, doodle, or look for quotes filled with inspiration and optimism.

Putting quotes in my planner for reminders :)

I know you aren't used to seeing me post things like these, because I choose to write about things that not only make me smile, but of course my readers as well. I don't want people going to my blog the first time and never coming back again because of all the negativity they felt. It's definitely not healthy for anyone. Besides, this is my happy place. But I hope you don't mind this melancholy entry for today.

Bible verses to help me when I'm feeling down. It works!:)

I guess there are just times when you can't help but feel lost and weak. I'm only human after all. From there thoughts start pouring in and I wonder about the past, present, future and question myself; Why are the opportunities I seek so hard to attain lately? Why do I feel like being forgotten in certain things? Am I not good enough? How long can I cope up studying what I'm not interested in? How long will this take? Why do I feel lost? When will I get MY turn? I seriously dislike getting these thoughts or feelings, because I honestly want to be happy. Who doesn't right?? But how can I be happy when I bury myself with these worries? Another question.

A prayer I encountered on Twitter :)

I don't have all the answer to my questions and there are more queries in my head. But then again, I often remind myself that I should never complain. I have no right to complain. God has given me so much in life. More than I could ask for and more than I deserve. He may not always give me what I pray for, but he actually gives me unexpected blessings that make me so much happier. He knows me better than I know myself. I wish I didn't feel that way I do sometimes (in terms of being down), because I should always keep in heart that in God's own time or if it's in his plan, it will happen and he will help me for the better and not just because I want it.

*not an original work/ just an inspiration* I forgot the H in sight haha :)) Sorry!

Also, a few words of wisdom that my mom told me today is that to focus more on what I'm doing now, do what makes me in a good mood, like blogging. To not dwell on the things that I cannot do anything about, because it is pointless. When I finish with my studies I can do so much more and to do greater things in whatever I have now.
Being sad is just a part of our everyday struggle. Like the famous quote; " Be Kind for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." -Plato ] Because of this I realized that there are so many things to be grateful for and happy about instead of sulking. I have a beautiful and healthy family, I get to spend time with my kids as often as I want, I am a happy wife, I'm in a good school, I have my own set of opportunities (even if they don't come as often as I would like. i'm still thankful for them), and all in all, I am in a good place and blessed. That's all that matters.

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"What you do every day matters more than what you do once in a while." and "Act the way I want to feel."

And you know what, letting all this out just made me feel better. Not a 100% but I'm getting there. Currently reading "THE HAPPINESS PROJECT" by Gretchen Rubin and I thought at first it wouldn't have any effect or interest me. But the book truly does wonders. If you need a picker-upper, then this is it. :)
Oh BTW, something to be totally happy about...

Our baby Asher has reached a milestone! He can finally flip over and raise his head! I can't wait to see more of his "firsts." They're pure bliss to me.♥
I hope I didn't bore you with all of my drama. It was just something I had to let out and if you're feeling the same thing, I surely hope this post made you realize a thing or two. If you reached the end of this post, thank you so much for reading. :)

March 20, 2013

Obviously, everyone can see my entry title up there and this time I tell you to take it literally because unfortunately last saturday I accidentally bumped a small metal post at Acacia Avenue in Alabang. Why did I hit the post? Well, to make the story clearer, I was given my license almost a month ago and I had the pleasure of driving our two month old car for the past three days successfully, but to only the places I was familiar with which was Makati and Pasay because I still had the fear of driving a van and being on the open road with all the nasty drivers around me, honking like crazy at my back and over taking without signaling so, there I bravely took the wheel and carefully drove my Mom's first car ever, which is a Toyota Innova going to Ayala Alabang Town Center. On our way there though we kind got lost so, we waited at a gas station for my tito to convoy us leading to ATC, but while we were waiting at the gas station, my tito said that we should just head to ATC because it was just "NEAR" and that he's sure we could manage. ( Does he even know the definition of near when your LOST???) So, right then and there we moved our car and made a right turn to Acacia Avenue when we saw this village guard. We knew we couldn't possibly find the place on our own, we asked the village guard if he can kindly lead us to ATC and happily he said, "Sige ma'am sumunod na lang kayo sa akin, dadalhin ko kayo dun.." And so, the newbie driver that I am hearing the words "sumunod kayo sa akin" I followed him without taking caution that he slid through the narrow way that had a NO U- TURN sign at the far right and so when I followed him I wasn't able to see the small post right in front of me and there, I bumped our two month old car. I swear, fear was super wanting to jump right out of me, but all I could do was shake. I was scared that I wrecked something very important to my Mom, something that she really worked hard to earn and that I had my grandmother and son at the back seat. I feel kind of traumatized to drive home that night, but I had to. I had to let the fear inside me go because I was the only driver present in our family and that the car was bought near our place and had to be taken there to be fixed. We cannot leave it in Alabang even though the radiator was suffering badly. Plus, we still had to deal with Police reports and stuff. Goodness, ka-bata ko may police blotter or whatever record na ako.

Hayy, I'm guess I'm just a little upset with how the village guard who lead us work. He could have just lead us the right way even if it was the long way, instead of taking us to a short cut and getting everything jeopardized. But then again it was also my fault for not being EXTRA cautious about it. I'm also glad that our car is covered by the insurance and that none of us were hurt and that Mom wasn't mad at me for bumping her car. These alone make my heart at peace.

So, to the newbie drivers or even if you're a pro, be super cautious on the road and the signs especially at night. Never take chances. If you have to run 40 kph on an express road do it because what you will be risking is your life if you're the type who loves rush all the time. Just a friendly reminder. Also even if you do commit and accident, don't let the fear take over you. You have to serve it as a lesson. Good night, guys!

October 24, 2008

Wow, it's been quite a while since I last made an entry. My last entry was about my unfortunate event last week. Someone stole my original lady bug Lesportsac from my backpack on the way home with Wubie. I seriously don't know how that person stole it, because my backpack straps are really sagad to my back that I can sense if someone's going to touch/open it. I can't believe my kikay kit is gone. It's not all valuable because the only stuffs in there was my lotion, perfume, rosary, lip gloss, favorite squirtle keychain, orange toy and candies, but still those were my stuffs and I love them. Especially my Lesportsac bag because Mom gave that to me as a reward for passing my math last third quarter, senior year and I never had the chance to use it, only now and my rosary which I always use to pray when I talk to God, that rosary was given to me by Wubie. We have matching ones. These things may not be money, but they have sentimental value to me and dagnabit another person is benefiting from it and he might have thrown in away thinking he can't get anything from my kit. UGH, masasabi ko lang talaga sayo is, Betch ka! Mag lotion ka kung gusto mo at mag rosary para malinis conscensya mo. Hay enough of the bitterness, I'll just it leave it all to God.

Well, school has been great and uber busy. As you can see, I don't blog as much anymore, but I'll try to update this as much as I can. I love doing home works ahead of time and doing things ahead of their deadline. It's good thing I also do because when I get home I want my time pretty much dedicated to Athan. I also enjoy my break times because I get to have lunch dates with Wubie and we see each other more often now because before it was on weekends, now I can eat with him everyday. I hope even though school work has been piling up I would still be able to achieve my academic goal and that is to be a dean's lister at CSB. *fingers crossed!*

Today has been a very busy day. I woke up super early like around 6 AM just to get to LTO on time to get my non-professional license fixed. I took the test and hopefully will get my license by tomorrow. Open road, here I come!=D I also washed Athan's bottles which was A LOT. 13 bottles to be exact, four milk containers, three pacifiers and a teether. Sigh, all I want to do now after this is get Athan to bed, shut my tired eyes and rest my achy body. I'm glad this LTO thing is over and next Tuesday I can sleep until 1 PM. (loving the bed!)

Well, I guess i'll put Athan to sleep now. Good night, everyone, be cautious with your bags when you commute and have a great week!

September 16, 2008

OKAY, just a little update on what happened to me this week since I wasn't able to blog about it yesterday or the day before because my internet connection decided to give up on me for about 3 days. The reason behind that is because my grandmother who pays PLDT didn't see that we had to pay the bill on or before August 22 which is odd because my grandmother and mom was use to the usual end of the month billing (which I don't know why it became mid-month all of a sudden) and so, seeing it too late around 2 days ago, PLDT cut our line, but we paid them yesterday early in the morning just so we could have the internet back. It's soooo difficult to not have the net. First of all, it's where my mom and I keep in touch, she's abroad so, she calls through skype to check up on us. Second, this will be my primary source when I get back to school because as I've heard, sometimes your reading papers for school is online or of course the daily announcements from school and third, I can't live without the internet especially nowadays when there's so much to do like, blogging, checking your updates in blogspot=) hehe, Multiply, the-not-so-interesting-anymore-friendster, and chatting. I'm really happy my net is up and working!

OH, I'm also done with my enrollment at CSB and all I have to do is my physical and dental exam, but I'm sort of in a rut with the chest x-ray part. You see, I encountered a minor pneumonia a couple of days ago (which I didn't know about if it weren't for my chest x-ray for CSB because I'm not coughing at all) and I've had my right lateral x-ray too last week and will be doing another chest x-ray for the doctor to see if my antibiotics helped clean my lungs. My doctor said if It still hasn't then she'll provide me with a letter for CSB saying that, I'm already taking meds for it. :) I'm also going to try and make my week the best week because coming monday is already my first day as a college girl. Wish me luck!

BTW, I mentioned here before that I joined ARTWORK's 2nd annual t-shirt design. Finally, after a month of having the bought t-shirt from Artwork I already finished my design. With a little help from Wubie on the sleeves. He helped me paint it. hehe. I'll show it to you, guys as soon as I've submitted it and when the contest is already closed which will be on September 15. Wish me luck on that one too!:) Thank you!

Well, that's all for now. I missed you, guys! Tah-tah!=)

P.S.

I just might stay here. Thanks to Christine who made me realize it. When it comes to the layout TUMBLR makes it a bit difficult for me and I feel a bit more at home here. :)

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